New theme..its time
03 Jan 2012 Leave a Comment
in Uncategorized Tags: jcjchicago
i changed my theme on my blog i think its time,time to lighten up..so my new theme fits me better.
Your design style is very interesting
03 Jan 2012 Leave a Comment
in Uncategorized Tags: alone, beauty within self, blacklove, free me.aim, god connection, jcjchicago, life, Queens, selflove, stronger
I can’t be nobody but me.. and love her and had to save her from herself..feelin somuch better these day,loving myself day by day and it feels good,been in a few show and geting feed back about my work so I m pretty content about life.I spend alot of time venting on this blog about my life and the men in it..but there somuch more to life that the men in my life,right now there is no man,and i think i m alright with that..I have plans to move around and maybe go to africa but travel is whats next I wish I had travel buddie but no one so far..so far its been a pretty good new years,it is the 3 day lol let all the old stuff go i feel stronger and i wish I had let it go along time go hold on to the past and drama smh is not for me.I tryed to make up with my X he is resentful still..but its ok I love and forgive everybody and I m keepin it moving and I want peace i made mistakes but i still deserve love. and to be loved i m sorry for the pain I cause and I m moving on..
Girls and Boys
13 Dec 2011 Leave a Comment
He only knew her 4 a little while,
but he had grown accustomed 2 her style
She had the cutest ass he’d ever seen
He did 2, they were meant 2 be
They loved 2 kiss on the steps of Versailles
It looked like rain, mama, birds do fly
I love u baby, I love u so much,
maybe we can stay in touch
Meet me in another world, space and joy,
vous etes tres belle, mama, girls and boys
He gave her all the love that anyone can,
but she was promised 2 another man
He tried so hard not 2 go insane
Birds do fly, looks like rain
I love u baby, I love u so much,
Maybe we can stay in touch
Meet me in another world, space and joy,
vous etes tres belle, mama, girls and boys
Life is precious baby, love is so rare
I can take the breakup if u say that u care
He had 2 run away, his pride was 2 strong
It started raining, baby, the birds were gone
(I love u baby, I love u so much)
Maybe (Maybe we can stay in touch)
Meet me in another world (Meet me in another world, space and joy)
vous etes tres belle (vous etes tres belle, mama)
girls and boys (girls and boys)
(I love u baby, I love u so much)
I want u, babe (Maybe we can stay in touch)
Maybe we can play today (Meet me in another world, space and joy)
vous etes tres belle (vous etes tres belle, mama)
girls and boys (girls and boys)
didnt get it before but get it now
Tryin to make me look bad stillll……
30 Nov 2011 Leave a Comment
I cant even believe this. this Man is still trying to make me look bad you run hot and cold. you still try to make me look bad, i m mad damn how much dick suckin and ass kissin I need to do for you let that shit go are you..why are u hintin around about that shit..and then u lyin at ..confusion
I know now part 1
30 Nov 2011 Leave a Comment
in Uncategorized Tags: blacklove, forgiveness, jcjchicago, madeover, soul mate
i know what i must do now,I guess this all been so hard for me becuase i have always believed in the fairytales,after realized that they are in love with each other they find ther way back.but there is no finding our way back if so it was temp..see without put everything on blast i really thought he would leave her for me,yes like i left him for someone but that my point its clear i wasnt happy with that one i was happier before i left…i was so confused about so much and now that i have lost i see it so clear..i heard something to day..surrender completely you may not get what yo want but you will get peace.so like the queen that i am I will let him be with one that he chose..i will live with choice i made..this feelin of a connection,or knowin he in pain or sad or happy,i need to leave it alone..so as i settle in to the truth and the reality of the whole thing..i know that true love out there for me,as i marching on keepin covering my biggest fears learning to uncover them part 2
All i want is him..
21 Nov 2011 Leave a Comment
in Uncategorized Tags: allah, blacklove, jcjchicago
The him he was hes not anymore.I can’t even get emotional about it i can’t even worry about it..but i say all I want is him.I think back all the step that got me right hear..this was going to manifest this way any way.some of it would have been different but for the most part the same.the things people say they want they really don’t..u say these thing because it sounds right not really knowin if what u speak is right for you..the crowd you have to empress will leave u in unfixable mess.no one can live this life but me,.
Happy…
28 Oct 2011 Leave a Comment
I was just happier when i was with him.and so was he,stubborn as a bull,and it wont see that he would be much better with me.
